As a bit of preamble: I’m not entirely sure what I intended this post to be, or quite how it wound up. I suppose it’s probably something of a confessional or a testimonial, at this point; maybe a reflection upon the history of my work ethic. Whatever else it is or isn’t, I hope it’s useful to you.
For a long time, I thought I had what people sometimes call “an addictive personality”. And, maybe there’s some truth to it, but I think there’s a lot more truth elsewhere. The “addictive personality” article on Wikipedia describes ”addictive personality” as “a psychological setback that makes a person more susceptible to addictions.” That’s a pretty broad description, but for a long time, I figured that’s what was going on with me. In college, I played MMORPGs at the expense of my grades. First I played Dark Age of Camelot, then I played World of Warcraft, and at the end of five years I still wound up one course shy of an actual degree. Looking back on that, I had a lot of reasons for wanting to slow down the effort I had been pouring into educational endeavors and I do think some of them remain valid, but in general I was just glad for an opportunity to be lazy, and those games gave me some pleasure that was lacking elsewhere.